my boys six months after the swap
six months ago i was living at children's mercy hospital being amazed by my little man, worried about nicks growing allergic reaction and grateful to take daily showers. today i'm still grateful to take daily showers even if they are at 5:30am. i'm also still amazed by little man. and nicks allergic reaction has been long gone. :-) it is really crazy to think that owen is upstairs sleeping in his bed with nicks kidney inside of him. nick doesn't like it to be called his kidney anymore, he says "i gave it to owen, it's not mine anymore" but owen calls it his daddy's kidney :-) it will always be nick's kidney to me too :-) it's truly amazing what doctors can do and i thank my lucky stars for them everyday. over the past week i've gone back and re-read my post from the weeks around the swap. those thoughts feel like they were from a life time ago. and lately it feels like those thoughts are hard to come by. today i was talking to my mom about how i find it harder to blog now. i said before i was always up late, couldn't sleep and that was when i would blog. now i don't stay up so late....hence why i don't blog so much. my mom made a comment that has had me thinking all day "before you couldn't sleep because you had so many worries about owen." it's probably true but it doesn't feel possible that i could have less worries about owen now. i wouldn't say i have more but maybe just different ones. a parent always worries about their kids, right? i just need to make sure i'm not letting my guard down with owen....that worries me :-/ may 13th owen has a 6 month biopsy on the kidney. they will do it in surgery under anesthesia because of his heart history. we will stay one night to watch for bleeding.....one night will be a breeze for us. on may 20th we have round 2 with the independence school district to see what their plans are for him next year. i'm actually looking more forward to hospital stay then i am the school meeting :-/ i'll let you know how they both go.